20. A sorta job.

Guys, last week, I filled in an application for an unpaid online job. Well, I got the job a few days ago but I won't tell you what it is yet, so stay tuned. It's pretty cool.

-stripeytofu

19. Have you ever..?

Do you believe in love at first sight?

I'm not quite sure what to make of it since I don't know what love is, but I like to think it's a real concept.

This morning, I think I came close. Perhaps.

I was on the tube to work, and I saw this girl standing to the side of me. She wore a beanie and a blue jacket. She wore other pieces of clothing too but I can't remember what they were. She had some makeup on; long eyelashes and red lipstick. She gave me the same feeling I have when I like a girl for a long time, but in just about 10 seconds. We were only on the same train for one stop, but those 40 seconds were magical. OK, I'm getting too cheesy for most of you now so I'm gonna back up.

But man, I won't forget her face.

-stripeytofu

18. Lucid dreaming.

Ever heard of lucid dreaming? It's a dream where one is aware that they are dreaming.

Basically you can sorta control what happens in it, whether having the ability to control yourself or objects inside the dream environment.

Okay, I'm bad at explaining, but it should be pretty clear to you now what I mean. How about an example? One time, I had a lucid dream which I totally remember even now. I was fighting a blue metal version of Donkey Kong. I have no idea why my mind decided to construct such a notion, but it did. He started running away, so I gave chase. But it felt light. I looked down at my feet and I wasn't on the ground! I realised I was flunning, Chinese style. To get what I mean, watch this video from Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon:


Yep, just like that.

After reading an article recently, it revitalised my interest in lucid dreams. I did some research on how to achieve lucid dreams on purpose. It takes some training, but it's actually possible. The top two ways I discovered to dreaming a lucid dream is making reality checks (such as checking your watch frequently in real life) and keeping a dream journal. I think it would be totally awesome to have more lucid dreams. Since I'm always so bored and looking for adventures, my dreams would be the next best place to have adventures. You know? I'm not sure if I can keep up with my reality checks though, but keeping a dream journal should be pretty easy. But the problem is, I haven't been remembering my dreams lately. I'll try to improve on that (somehow).

My dream, is to one day have a dream about cheese meteors, and having a big head so I can eat those meteors. Here's an image I spent a long time in drawing, so I hope you appreciate it.

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-stripeytofu

16. Sometimes I just wonder.

No, I lied. I mean all the time, I just wonder what my purpose in life is. I feel like I'm meant for so much more. I realise I've not even lived the real world yet, but is it wrong for me to feel like there's not much waiting for me there? I feel like I've had a taste of it already living here and trying to find temporary jobs. It's not.. Fulfilling or satisfying enough. It just seems like an endless cycle of nothingness. I don't mean ro sound so depressed but I'm just bored of life, you know? I actually would prefer if the apocalypse happened (especially zombie) or something like War of the Worlds. Now that would be interesting. I wanna be swept away to sea and wake up on a stranded island. See, this is Movie Me coming out again. Movie Me has much much higher expectations of life.

I like how I can use this blog to vent out my frustrations and problems, and for that I am so thankful. I can always turn to it when I have no one to talk, or rather no one who can understand how I feel. Well, maybe there's one person but we're kinda in the same situation so talking to him wouldn't really improve anything.

-stripeytofu